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I'm so sick and tired,

of all these things that drag me down.

..

Come and take me home,

lead me to your door.

Taken from Dishwalla - Home

Sometimes

Sometimes it feels like even your closest ones do not have the time for you.

Sometimes it seems so distant, so superficial, when you just wanna get closer.

Perhaps I should just work, do what I am meant to do.

It's been a while, since I've been home and I'm missing it.

Here I am.

Well, I really felt like putting my thoughts on somewhere.

Being less sober makes it easier. Been in Oxford and somehow I feel lost, seems like I dont belong here all of a sudden.

Be positive. Quote:

when things dont go right, they merely go left, never wrong.

Another Years Gone..

You know how fast time flies when you've been in university for two years and now being in the final year.

Yesterday was like the day moving into university and today you're unpacking, moving into another new place for the last time (at least for my undergraduate studies).

This brings me back to the whole aim of this post, ie: a dedication to my mum, cause I know she'd find time to read this blog, to check on me; despite the fact that I might be too busy/lazy to get it up.

Let me just show off about my mum, she's great for many many reasons. Recently with the passing of my grandmum, the sheer dedication she had, she'd never feel tired making trips and I mean long distances since Kajang is never ever near anywhere just to take care of my grandmother! That's one.

Apart from that, this year was rather different. I realized towards the end that I've spent quite a short time in Malaysia. Unlike before where I was traveling for a month max and then being around home either bumming or doing up an internship. This year around was less. Towards the last few days at home, I suddenly missed being around the family. I've never quite had the feeling of being unhappy of letting go. Very often I can just let things go and move on without the burden. As bad as it sounds, I mean I've been strong most of the time and this was a feeling never felt before.

Even on the fact that my parents did not stay long in Oxford when they first sent me here. I did not feel much even when they left immediately after I unpacked.

This links to another thing that I really really appreciate my mum for. I know I may not look appreciative or what BUT the moment I reach like the UK and when I unpack those stuff. I would see how nicely arranged they were! Those shirts and duvet covers/bed sheets. Man. That's when you know you have the best best best mum ever.

The questions that she'd ask you like, you wanna bring instant curry over this time? You wanna bring this? Bring that? Despite the fact that she was so busy with my late grandmother.

I mean mum, these are the small/big things that you've done and I really really thank you for that and I love you. Getting old is nothing, you had always looked the same may it be 10, 15 years ago. I cant say 20 because I would be too young to remember and I would be lying if I said 20! That's besides the point.

You know, the everlasting love and care I would repay. You will get your sports car in a few years. ;)

With much love and regret for not calling earlier. Happy Birthday Mum!! I LOVE YOU!

ps: no pictures either SINCE I do not have internet at home and currently in uni just for the internet!

The Story of.

The past few months been pretty life changing, moving from one place to another. Dont know whether it's the right decision to do this much, however I guess I'd have to find a place to practise or specialise soon. It's definitely fun trying to search within yourself but its consuming money like a mofo!

The Story of the Triumvirate in Bangladesh:

Grameen Bank HQ in Dhaka, one of the tallest, cool stuff.

Kept saying, a real estate guy's worst nightmare having to manage all of em.

Old Dhaka where we had our pictures taken infront of the Pink Palace whileeeeee....

You get 231391 people taking out their cameras and taking photos of you.

This was in the village, somehow Murakami attracted unwanted visitors

Me and the MAN I went all the way to Bangladesh for

Moving on, holidays/ self enrichment time in Bali/Lombok

Nusa Dua, sure it's beautiful

Our epic phail-ed hitchhiking attempt. We were offered taxis for 300-500k Rupiahs, eq to (usd30-50)
This was our usd$8 room up in Lovina, where we did dolphine watching the next day. Shabby place.

Sunsets really beautiful in Lovina

Somehow picture got tilted, rough black sand. Not the best place to be when it's baking hot and sunny.

Anddddd. The surfer boys :D

So Tell Me

Been back from Bali after 2 weeks, got back a few days ago and still been pretty busy with some other issues. Bali was good just except that after being exposed to some pretty awful sights, my perceptions been changed.

A few more days till Bangladesh and I'm not sure whether I could do it, I hope I can, I dont know.

Should I go to Bangladesh, on the other hand, my grandmum is really ill, I've got back earlier than planned from Bali and I dont know whether I should leave at this time for my internship.

Home

Dear friends!

Please watch the video below, spend some time to watch it and of course continue to share it with others.

Humans are plundering this earth, not forgetting politicians who are not doing anything about it.

here ;)

Home I am

Been a while to update isnt it. heh, truly sorry about that. Have been crazily busy with uni, pretty glad I got the travel scholarship and also a small prize being the top in the department. wafoo. :D

At least things are getting in place, investments here and there, attended a conference on Carbon Credits, relatively new topic but I guess it's about time Malaysians pick up the pace and try being a leader within this region.

Met inspiring people from the conferences:

Take a look around and see what they do for the world and people. Time to do something against climate change!

Another site where I made contact with the chairman, young French guy, truly inspiring. More to do! :)


Apart from that, I've been home for almost a month now. Been reading up, lazing, meeting friends, good meals around, got back from Perth almost 2 weeks ago, it was all good!

I cant wait for the next month, travelling to Bali for 2 weeks or so then Bangladesh for my placement. Learning slowly in German, wish I was faster. Enjoy the pictures and I miss you!

Strings of Pathetic Issues

Sometimes I wonder whether things will change back Home in Malaysia.

Over the years, I've picked up issues such as Malaysian politics, climate change, economics and etc. To start off, Malaysian politics - definitely good to know whats happening and what's more likely to be the truth or otherwise. However, if you were a patriot to the country, thinking the country is good as it is , I would strongly suggest that you should not read into Malaysian politics and often quoted : Ignorance is Bliss.

The recent by-elections were alright, I was disappointed with Batang Ai's result. But also to be fair to voters there, they probably do not know what is development in the sense of maturity and also physically through buildings/roads and etc. They are kept separated from the rest of the world, Barisan National feeding them with sweets, telling them that they're the best government, parties from Peninsular are just here to rip/rape you of your land etc. What they dont know is Barisan being hypocritical about the whole issue. They need to be notified of whats been happening.

Good string of incidents, Najib being the recent Prime Minister where he's been carrying shit loads of allegations from corruption, the incitement to racial issues, linked to a murder case and so on. Yet, he is made the leader of the country. I had no objections of who becomes the PM but of course you have to come clean yourself before you come forward and say that you'd only pick clean members to be part of the cabinet. The level of maturity in Malaysian politics have failed, have a look at China, population of more than 1.3bn and yet being so matured in politics. Yes, the way of them running the country may be different but u see progress, the world looks at China differently compared to when they first open up to the world.

Altantuya's murderers/mastermind gets away untouched. The courts did not state any motive/mens rea as to why the murder happened. Throwing down a death sentence for those 2 policemen wont clear up the mystery behind that. For all you know, since nobody has really seen the faces of those 2, they can easily substitute or even let them both go secretly. Nobody knows.

Picking the new cabinet is another issue. Hishamuddin being the minister of home affairs? What qualification does he have? Pacifying other races by raising his keris, instilling fear into them hence a more peaceful Malaysia?

What happened to Khairy despite him winning the Umno Youth? He deserves something to be honest, I believe he is capable just that perhaps all these while he has not gotten his priorities right, ambitious and proud. Mukhriz on the other hand did not win yet gotten a place in the cabinet. Ministry of trade, some profit making ministry.

Mahathir, dont tell us Malaysians that you did not play a role in this. We're not idiots. We do not need you back, such a old hypocrite. Don't accuse one of corruption when you are no different.

After all these years, Malaysians are still fighting for their own personal good, personal benefit while the world has moved on taking issues which have more weight. Of course not forgetting the welfare of it's citizen but major issues like climate change and etc. Grow up Malaysia, would u need another 50 years? 50 years of embarrassment?

Bueno Vista Social Club

Yesterday was quite a productive day, I somehow wonder how can Real Estate fellas cope with the course, get a first in the course. The course isn't that tough to understand but there's too much to work, assignments every other week and apart from that, we get exams too. I'm rushing on assignments but I cant seem to find any time to understand my lecture notes, let alone study and memorize. -_-

On a better note, went to a friend's penthouse in Oxford yesterday. Absolutely lovely, came back to my own house after that, felt that it was more like a shithole.lol. Imagine where the bedrooms are on the ground floor and at the end of the corridor, a spiral staircase leading to the top, where his dining area, living area and kitchen is situation. A pretty good sized balcony where it seems wonderful over summer, we had our BBQ there, good food, good company with a bunch of guys.

We watched a film/documentary yesterday : Bueno Vista Social Club. It gave me so many different thoughts:

- I want to travel to South America
- There are just too many cultures and talents all around
- Would the Cubans be the same without American's sanction of them
- So much more....

Basically, the movie was on these group of lovely, Cuban jazz players, specialising in different intruments, lovely lovely voices and all. They last performed in this Social Club in Havana was probably in the 1940s and that film was made in the early 1990s. Ry Cooper, an American guy decided to go to Cuba and seek for these legendary musicians and he convinced them to play once more. Bear in mind, this is after 50years since they last performed and which means that they were all around 85, 90 years old. They were so so fit, imagine the coordination you would need to sing and play an instrument, they were showing off on stage, feeling proud again.

Imagine your close friends and you, your crew, your band, your homies were to meet up after 50 years and do what you use to do 50 years ago. Imagine the bond. They were just amazing although I dont understand Spanish(but with help of English Subtitles)

Perhaps Havana cigars did play a role in keeping them healthy. My tribute to those guys who left the club and those who are still playing.



Ibrahim Ferrer (1927 - 2005)



Compay Segundo, a legend, true legend. (1907 - 2003)

Mixed Week

It's been snowing for quite a bit lately, rarely for Oxford and it caught most people by surprise. Lecturers getting snowed in, classes getting cancelled, buses arent operating. Great isnt it.

I'll be going off to Warwick today for their Malaysian Night, hope its good and then come Monday where I'll start off some crazy routines! All in this semester with time outs to the gym and etc! ;)

Apart from that, Im mourning for Malaysia, a crisis is brewing and of course with even the present credit crunch etc. Najib will be taking on soon it seems but before he could even do that, he's appears to be even worse, merciless, cruel and of course corrupted.

Watch this clip, is this where the country is heading to? Come on, put down our differences, we're generalising other races all the time. It's time to let go and be united. No matter how far we go, how far we work/live/study I believe deep down everyone takes Malaysia as their home and is second to none.

I R Tired

15 minutes to 5am.

Caffeine isnt working that well somehow.

Fatigue is setting in.

I R tired.

I shall sleep.

Out of the Norm

Normally I would not blog anything about Israel and Palestinians.

I don't think I know enough to comment anything about it. The world isn't helping it any better. On one side, people are against it added by some who get so furious hence more violence as a form of retaliation and another side who supports it.

Michael Backman has been one of my favorite columnist, being very bold in nature. I've bought his book titled "Asia Future Shock". Something really interesting but slightly on the short side.

The article below definitely worth some of your time.

Israelis are living high on US expense account

Listen

Listen, give it a listen.

Sometimes we just have to sit back and listen.



Enjoy.

So Long

I know its been a while since I've last written about anything. Uh, the crazy stuff going on. Most of the coursework been done except for two more due on the first day of uni. I dont know why Brookes have to give us close to 2 months of holidays. I mean its great but not so in the end since our Easter holidays are too short to even study. Sighs.

Second years been great, challenging year and definitely a very productive one. Often I tell myself to work hard, do well and so much more. Studying in the UK changed who I am and who I was. In a good way and bad of course. Good in the sense that I'm more confident and more exposed. You will never know how its like within a country till you've lived long enough in it.

So much to do, university life and at the same time, why do we even work so hard for university? To graduate then get a job, work ourselves up the ladder? At the end of the day, coming out starting your own business say at 30? 35? Is life all about working? Being blessed, being able to attend talks etc, I've been inspired to start off something, something I hope that will work. Not so much about the money that can be gained but of course experience. I'll keep the business idea on a low first, those who know about it please keep it down too ;)

I had one of the craziest times, I forced myself to finish and hand in a coursework 1 week before the dateline so that I'd be able to attend a trip particularly to Prague and Vienna then fly off from Bratislava. Left for Prague starting on the 14th while spending a pretty good time. Sue Bee introduced a friend of hers, Florence. One of the few people who's able to communicate, click well. Perhaps I don't click that well to alot, I dont know. To me, I live cause of friends and family.

Hoping Prague to be good, I was pretty disappointed. I was expecting people to be really friendly, people to show you around etc but it is rather different. Perhaps I shouldnt have visited a major city but the outskirts, where people still have their own cultures intact. I've always wondered, we call this globalisation but what exactly is it about? Having our cities all modern with skyscrappers, streets occupied by high end brands which you can get in literally any city? Now I understand of why cultures are important. If you even remember/wonder why back in primary our teachers insisted that we play some traditional games like gasing/ tops spinning. Imagine you being a tourist to Malaysia and the people can only offer u the Twin Towers, the shopping beneath it and nothing more.

Prague Castle from afar
Prague main square



One of the cathedrals in Prague Castle


Departed from Prague train station to Kutna Hora

Kutna Hora, Kostnice Sedlec

A bone filled chapel.


Dancing Building/Centre in Prague, pretty cool building, a dancing couple ?


Vienna was good, good food, ice cream, friendly people and much more. Of course theres a price to pay. Euros been exceptionally strong that I'm starting to worry for them. Very very nice architecture and sometimes wonder why Malaysians cant change to live in a better environment. You get squeeky clean streets, nice buildings unvandalised, good transportation and more. Theres so much we (the younger generation) can do for the country but of course very often ideas fuelling for change go no where.

The Parliament of Vienna



Hofburg Imperial Palace




Christmas Market with the City Council building behind.


It is sad, I spoke to my housemate's family today and they faced almost the same thing back in Zimbabwe. I believe they do miss the life back in Zimbabwe but because it got pretty dangerous for them to live there they had to leave. Similarly, I thought if I were to work in the UK, for sure I'd be making a few folds more of what I can get back home. Then again, it is not the money that I'm after but a better home. Going home with a better qualification might not put u in a good position or rank since corruption is so common, so blatant.

Nevermind that, a new year, a new change. I vow to improve and practise what I preach. Wish me luck as I got a long way to go.

Excruciating Pain

Ok, maybe I am exaggerating having agonizing pain but it is perhaps true. Suffering from Fever, bad throat, cough, some flu, phlegm, literally the whole package one might sometimes call.

It's been a week since I've first fallen ill, falling ill have ruined my plans of getting things done, getting courseworks done, unbelievably this year is so much tougher than the first year. Submitting a legal assignment last week, Valuation coursework due on the 18th of this month, 26,27th I have a presentation on NEXT plc., a report on NEXT plc due on the 1st of Dec, and 8th a construction project on Bullring Birmingham would be due.

Man, times have change; no longer the usual weekly, fortnightly trips to London where I have my weekly dose of good food (chinese food), meeting up with close buddies where we share similar interests and good laughs. This is not even working life, and I am still in university! Heck, I can even forsee where all close buddies would have no time for good old sit around, movie watching and food hunting around. I'm not gonna let that happen though, what is the whole point of money making and not having quality life.

I've came across a quote which I think is great, it goes something like:

It's not the years in your life that matters but the life in your years that count. Something along that line.

This makes me think of my dad, he works really hard (at least often claiming to). Of course in a way that can be measured through his ability of sending me overseas and still having a comfortable life. I highly look up to my dad in the sense that he treasures his friends so much, and I'd love to have a lifestyle of his where he still gets to have his good old daily breakfast with most of his primary/high school close friends over the weekdays, and I really mean daily without fail. Often having lunch with them as well and spending his time on physical working, back breaking farming work in his orchard over the weekends.

True that he often claims, but I have never quite met a guy who can wake up early in the morning everyday, (claim the early bird prize of the toilet), do gardening, weed pulling every single morning and then head to work. Despite the fact that he doesnt have much time for us over the weekdays, often not seeing him at all for dinners; he would still try to make time for the family. Ahh, of course very often we have some sorta debate/arguments over issues but its all good.

See, I feel its such a gifted thing where you can spend time, meeting up friends, catching up over meals literally everyday. Ok, perhaps its enough praising for my dad, might continue with other family members in the near future. Just my random thoughts I'd say.

Falling ill isnt great at all, especially falling ill for a week and the having the last time falling ill probably few years ago. Times like this you really appreciate good health and to those living in colder countries, put on more; keep yourself cozy and appreciate life! :)

The Bs'

Man, its been such a busy time since I got into my second year. I have courseworks due literally every week starting November till 8th of December. sigh. Nevertheless I feel its a good practice as how far of a limit one can push. Semester 1 is crazy, going to libraries till they shut, BUT often not being very efficient in studies. My concentration span is way tooooo short!

The above is one of the "B-usy" The next one would be that I'm trying to get some businesses off the ground. Although still in it's initial stage but I mean we're getting serious about it. Jun and I (probably founders/partners) agreed to the company name of Oxedo. Which brings about Oxford-Tuxedo sorta thing. This business would involve people in Oxford being able to buy custom made suits online and with a slashed off price of what you would pay in the UK for a custom made suit. We have gotten some colloboration with Oxford students and hopefully it will take off somewhere next year.

And OH, we even got our own domain which we bought yesterday. www.oxedo.eu . No point going there since we have not created a webpage on the domain. Anyway, wish me luck ;)

The credit/financial crisis have recently gone bad to worse, foreclosures, repossesion of homes, you name it. Hold on tight people, I'm predicting a bigger downward movement before it would even recover. Economies are on a brisk of recession, cut spending while horde up cash in case of any opportunity arises. As for Malaysian students studying overseas, it might seem really good since major currencies have depreciated. £ 1.00 currently stands at Rm 5.65. This is some major difference compared to the almost decade. An Australian d is literally hovering at Rm2.20.

Ah, another post. winters getting close, temperatures dropping below 5, sunsets getting earlier by the day. Till then. ;)

Updates!

Here I am in my new room, new house down in Marston. One wonderful place, ok, maybe not quite wonderful in terms of location but its still pretty awesome. Despite the fact that Im ONLY 30mins walk from Brookes and I've timed the cycling time which would be 8-10 minutes.

Just have gotten the internet, I had internet for since I got here but it was more like taken off somebody's wifi without password! Things have changed, we have our own wireless now!

Bike has been stolen over summer, sadly! Although I have placed it, locked it right beside to the security guard house. Had to buy a new one and I was told by the bike shop that prices of bikes has gone up. Everything go up lah, bloody substitute good for oil.

Anyway, to perhaps show you some pictures of my room. I've taken so much effort, especially taking my lazy ass up to fix up the room, get the stuff from shops like standing lamps and few others, packing up my clothes and unpacking them, cleaning up the room etc. Man. I feel good though.

HOWEVER, the picture shows that my room is still in a mess but its not quite the case, I've been abit busy(lazy), just set up a new time table for this term and pray that it would go as planned! Need to constantly stay on the top, gonna start hunting for internships!


What a frigging small wardrobe. Virtually useless apart from hanging the shirts.


My bed and the set of drawers which were provided seemed to be really useful, especially to store the 43 t shirts I brought! :D

Kinda messy on the table! Just ignore that.


Ordered a shoe rack from Argos for £4.95. Seems rather good to me.

Just put up the mirror and some hooks on the wall myself. Part of the small touches!




Attended Stamina7 yesterday, in which we buy this T shirt and have 7 pub/bars/clubs in our crawl. I think I was told that a total of 700 students attended this. Was pretty amazing, apart from getting drunk really easily, been such a lightweight after less drinking over the past months!

My T shirt which says "Climber" got ripped by sadly- guys. You can guess who did that, and you're right


This was how it looked when I was in the club, minus the gray tank top. Was funny when this bouncer approached and said that if I were to have the cloth off myself, I'd get kicked out.

Not forgetting Stamina7 started at 7pm, but we got there around 8 and out till 2! Madness


A new time table has been planned out! Gotta start working, get nerdy! Be Kiasu!


Good eh?

Dedicated Post to Mum

I would like to dedicate this post specially to my mum. Happy Birthday Mummy, and perhaps you would not like to disclose your age here hence I wont. Its not that I've forgotten by any chance ;)

Well, to the most special woman in my life of course. My mum has been fabulous and which words cant quite describe. She was ever there when I needed her, always so caring and helpful. We may have some arguments and stuff but I guess its a way of showing love.

Anyway, I hope you will enjoy your birthday and may you be blessed with the best of health and happiness.

Tho taken long time ago, but we hardly changed!

Even longer, but its okay! :D

Another one.

And finally!!

Happppy Birthday Mummy!

Scheiße

Scheiße man.

Ever since I got back to Malaysia I've lost so much weight!

Time to gain back, time to buff up again. SIGH.

Current short term target = 72kg and I'm 8kgs away.