Malaysian Perceptions

Somehow I always result to blogging after a while of studying, I'm really getting sick of studying, not that Ive been studying that much but i really dont know! Its like a problem, I dont remember what I read, I just read through but not understanding it and then I read back again. Its such a waste of time. pfft!!

Been reading articles lately which obviously attract more of my attention other than sitting down studying. Till tomorrow I'll be less bored and hopefully I'll be able to sit down and study once again when uni starts and when most friends come back to Oxford. That would be far less depressing from the state I am in now.

Ok, so back to the article, the race issue in Malaysia. Those residing in Malaysia or even those who knows abit of Malaysian politics would probably know that the ruling government Barisan National/Ruling Front consist of smaller party components: UMNO, MCA, MIC, PPP, Gerakan etc. Very often you listen to them saying that we strive for unity and have only one race: Malaysian ; then again ironically you have UMNO claiming they fight for Malay right, MCA fighting for chinese, so on and so forth. What do they really want to achieve at the end of the day?

The recent article by Raja Petra, somebody I look up to never fail to bring in the light. He was saying that we're all racist even though we might claim to have Malay, Indian, Chinese, Kadazan, Lun Bawang :P or any other race friends. In the first place, we should not call them Malays, Chinese etc since we claim to be one and to have only one race - Malaysian.

To be honest, that would make myself racist. Deep down, I am very sure almost every Malaysian is racist in a way or another. In fact I would blame the ruling government for this, with their racial segregation embedded in law, practises etc. On the other hand, I do not have problems with other race in fact I would proudly call them as being part of a big family. The few major reasons which keeps us wide apart is the upbringing of our family, and sometimes even education system. Whats the point of having Chinese school, Malay schools and Tamil schools when this would cause children to be seperated from children of other races when young. As a matter of fact, it would be easier to influence a young person's thinking compared to somebody way older.

The lack of understanding between races have placed us wide apart in terms of relationships. I have friends from another race and yes, we're really close but it is all because of us being tolerant and a strong understanding among each other have made the relationship work. The perception of some Chinese I'd say hate other races to their guts. Hey, this is sometimes not what they want, you call other race being racist towards you but as a matter of fact you are equally racist inside. I somehow dont understand why but we're equal, not all chinese are angels so on for other races.

The perception of other races being racist towards you should be changed and if only you make a change, it would also encourage others to follow along. Before the elections, I was telling some people how great it would be if the ruling government loses its 2/3 majority mandate some even replied that May 13 would recur. I had a totally different view, May 13 has happened close to 40 years ago and we Malaysians cant be that stupid to let it recur in which thankfully it didnt and I'm glad. Given the government losing 2/3, we should really appreciate this and perhaps even start all over. Leave everything unpleasant behind and look towards having a better future without racial issues, whilst given a fair play in every aspect as well as a real freedom of speech in which the government has claimed to give.


I'm sorry if the post bores you, I have my fair say and hopefully it brings about a change in how you view others. Malaysia is nevertheless a wonderful country to be in given that I've been in the UK for quite a while now, despite the flaws, we're still a new nation but one with bright future ahead.

Its About Time

I guess its about time, time when i need to sit down and work my ass off. focking hell! 1:30am in the morning and I'm doing my law studies, pretty alright progress but nevertheless getting distracted.


Distracted by the computer, even my hairs irritating my eyes. I NEED A HAIRCUT but just cant afford. Thanks to the cap Osman bought for me the last time. Its of good use now, in which I hardly wear caps or beanies or any headwear at all. Im bored.


Beware: something I dont do very often, at least not here.

Sorry bout the pits.
Hip hop looking. But as much as I'd love to look or go back into the old hiphop shit. Next picture

Checked sleeping pants at 1:30am in the morning fits the whole hiphop criteria.

I was going through some songs, and I came across some Korean ones. As much as I got so irritated by my mum last time for having korean dramas, and songs being played literally the whole time back home; as much as I hate to say this, I actually miss them. Perhaps Im just home sick. I need to do well for this exam, I need a good place for summer internship 2009. I need it.

When

I miss home, just around 2 more months and I'll be back home, plenty have been running through my head. Thoughts of how'd it feel like to be on the Bus or Tube to the airport, then after being an hour away from arriving Kuala Lumpur, thoughts of being in the car on the way home, thoughts of driving the car again, thoughts of going out for cheap good food.

PLENTY!

I know im getting closer whenever I change my contact lens, thats when one month is over.
Its closer when I change my toilet roll, thats when time has passed.
When I restock food, when a week of class is over.
There are so many indications that time is passing by quickly and Im missing home so much that I feel happy replacing my used stuff with new ones knowing more time has passed.

I can smell home, its near and yeah it is.

Ive spent almost a week in London now and I'll head back to Oxford to finish up some coursework and get serious. I need my 2:1 or first class even for my first year.

Sucky thing is that I've fallen sick, down with some flu and fever. I'd blame the weird weather, I have experienced snow, hail, and even sunny weather with snow.

Also some good news, I've managed to bulk up. Gained 10kg since I got here, I'd say its a great achievement but its getting better by the day.



I miss home and I miss you - you know.

Runaway

So many things has happened lately followed by one after another.

Sometimes I really dont know what I really want out of this life, Im rather confused and also very often I do something and I forget that I did it.

Sometimes I just feel rather hollow inside and not just talk,socialise just for the sake of talking but to make good friends.

I dont know and I find it hard to explain, its like Im there physically but not there in spirit. I feel motivated to do something but till the very moment I sit down and get myself working, I break down in spirit.

Perhaps cause I kinda miss home but I guess I shouldnt make it a reason for myself to further deteriorate in standards. I'll be back very soon.

The coming 2 weeks easter break shall be the time where I do a runaway.

Signs?

Woke up relatively late today, but it was PART of the plan. :D Got back from an event at the SU yesterday, One of the Scratch Perverts crew came to do some serious scratching work on turntables, nevertheless I felt he was pretty overrated. Being titled best in the world, I wont know whats better that best then.


Got up late and did some serious following up on the 12th GE, it somewhat brought so much joy and excitement when I saw the opposition are winning seats in good places like bangsar, cheras, klang, pj etc. Not to say I'm a supporter of the opposition but the ruling government acted far too arrogantly, not being able to attend to the peoples need was bad enough but they were living in state of denial. High level of corruption, escalating crime rates, uh, those big shots feel safe for sure when they're being escorted by bodyguards and drivers unlike the commons.


Hence, with the government losing vital states like Selangor, Penang bundled with Perak, Kedah and Kelantan, this was more like a wake up call for the government. Malaysia's so called democratic pratice is far short with phantom voters and postal votes manipulations lingering around. Nevertheless, some people have finally come to their senses and decided to swing away from voting for the government; even phantom voters and rigging of votes cant help.


I still do see some sorta future in Malaysia, a place where I'd proudly call home. Daniel Chua calls it a broken home but a home nevertheless. Some have already lost hope in the country and at the rate its going. To be slightly realistic, the current Malaysians are more dynamic unlike the past. Education would play a part in race binding, back in my high school it was somehow done really well, being different in race did not affect on whether we could be friends and even really close friends.


The question is now whether we can really progress by giving the opposition party a chance, whether the government will work with the opposition. Given BN is still the ruling government, will they channel funds to opposition states equally or adequately in the future? Now seeing, the parliament will have big debates over issues, imagine the govt proposes something and the opposition objects it or vice versa, then when will we ever get anything approved? After all most candidates work for the party and not for the good of the people which they are supposed to be in the first place.


I feel awfully bad for some capable leaders in BN, not to say all are rotten but there are some qualified ones. Do not give up if you're not chosen this GE, prove to the people that you deserve it. IMO, voters have made up their mind by voting for the opposition not because certain leaders were not capable but to show their anger towards the government for not listening to the people. In fact, the government should be afraid of the people and not the other way by using lame shit ass law like the ISA. This is like playing some sorta video game and when you're losing, you active the cheat codes.


This big change in government composition would definately wake BN up, MIC deserve what they are today same goes to DAP with their constant battle in the parliament over the pass few years. Hopefully the opposition is given a chance to prove their worthiness to the people who have elected them. Few years down the road I a strong positive feeling about Malaysia's future.

And also, congratulations to Datuk Seri/Uncle Fong Chan Onn. ;)

Rough Patch

Been some shit ass fked up week; right after Imperial M-night.

I'll tell you why:

When I got up on Monday just bout to go to class, I realized that the front of my door had floor spilled all over, this is obviously some childish act and then again without much doubt, its either the gay dude or the american girl.

Made another complaint about them, the wardens came that night, tried to become some sorta mediator to solve our problems. The rest of the flatmates were rather neutral hence having no problems with one another, the gay guy and the american went saying loudly they have major issues with me in which I wasnt surprised at all.

Their allegations, I create an uncomfortable situation for the gay guy when hes in the kitchen. I was rather confused with that, how on earth do u make some one uncomfortable, I dont walk around naked in the kitchen nor the corridors. In fact that would even turn him on and I'd be the one uncomfortable. So I asked him, how on earth did I manage to make him feel uncomfortable. He replied, you stare at me, you ignore me and u do all sorta things. Oh come on man, first of all, I'm not even gay, why would I stare and since when ignoring somebody is WRONG (not that I even ignore).

The american girl fired me even more in front of the warden. She said that Ive been framing her all along. For those who dont know what have been going on in my flat: I made a complaint against the american girl cause shes been living in the same flat with her boyfriend for months, such a loser. She claimed that her boyfriend goes home every single day and this was then backed by the gay guy confirming her statement is true. Fine, I kept quiet since its some sorta big conspiracy against me.

Later on, the gay guy continued more firing, saying I wasnt welcome at the flat at all and everyone wants me to leave. Yada, if this was the case, nobody would be talking to me in the first place and the gay guy is already 21 years old, acts like a big baby, not only hes gay, he has no friends except for a loser american girl whos short fat and ugly, needs his mum to be around when he falls sick, cant even cook, the first guy whom i know burnt instant noodles by putting it in a microwave without adding water. DOH. How on earth do u get soupy instant noodles without water. retarded.

Of course I did my firing back, till the american girl pretended and broke down in tears. Instantly I wrote a letter and handed it to the warden and I got moved 2 days later.

Here today, Ive moved in to a new flat, same floor with Ally which seems to be all great so far. The moving part was so fking tiring and I had some test at 8 45am today.

I hope it goes uphill from here, and also the election date is near. Vote wisely people, tell your parents, your family, your relatives, your friends not to vote the ruling party unless you want more of racist remarks, unprofessional ways of running the govt, inefficiency and major corruption.

Ah, sorry bout all the whining. Im definately feeling better in the new flat but nevertheless cant wait to move to our new house with some group of fabulous housemates. :)

Do not send any more postal mails to my old address, just change the front (K2C) to E5A .

The Weekend

This weekend have been by far very entertaining. Went down to London specifically to attend the Malaysian Night organized by Imperial College London. They had a play - KAWAN together with some dances, singing, dikir slotted in. Performing 2 nights in a row, Friday and Saturday; I decided to attend the Saturday night since most friends have decided on that night and due to other reasons.

I got down to London, bought megabus tickets for £1.50 and met up with few friends for dinner. Persian food, was good but obviously a bomb to foot the bill. Some decided to go clubbing but I was wearing casual shoes, sneakers. Dont understand why clubs in London have to be so pretentious making formal shoes a must in clubs; I mean how do u dance comfortably with a pair of formal shoes when they are not meant for dancing. They dont play slow ballroom dancing songs inside the club, try dancing hiphop with formal shoes, perhaps its some trend. Hence i got myself denied from the club.

The next day - the whole play was fantastic, far better than Warwick Msian Night im afraid to say. The transition were perfect, good lightings and far entertaining. Im not sure is it because more friends performed in this hence the more biased comment or something. I thought they were great, Amresh was acting like his natural self, Sing Kwan as well being all funny and animated. Joshua and Chester performing some of the dances, well entertaining. Jun came all the way down from Birmingham to watch the show right after his climbing competition but he arrived RIGHT after the last scene ended. What a waste.

Overall I had good fun, and ohh, I had a narrow escape today. Took the bus back from Oxford and while we just got on the highway, our bus got hit by probably an air rifle. The bus was probably moving at 60kph and the bullet shot the side window. Buses have thick glass windows, most of the time double glazed together with protective films. Shockingly the bullet/pellet got through 2 layers of glass and cracked the whole thing. The impact was well loud as well, and I was sitting probably 1.5 rows away from that place. If that rifle were to be shot nanoseconds earlier, I would have got hit either on my neck or my head definately. I dont think Im gonna ever sit downstairs anymore. narrow escape.