Safe and Secure

In relation to Suat Ling's post, I'd sincerely hope that every single member of your family is alright, have speedy recover as well as to gain back the sense of security, overcome the trauma. A break-in happened and as usual, and as often it may get, its most likely to be the indonesian labourers. I mean why come over to work when you actually intend to rob somebody? If your country isnt deep in shit enough because of all the things you have done to the chinese, raping, killing back in the past ; they wouldnt have left and im sure indonesia would be even further off than what they are today. Not to generalise all indonesians but work legitimately and improve yourselves from there, its all bout sheer hardwork and not invade/snatch what others have worked their asses off.

Suat Ling's family is now traumatized, father got injured down with countless number of stitches, just one question, where did u friggin place your conscience when you guys have decided to break into a house? On the other hand, the Police forces, you call yourselves Police Diraja or in direct translation would be the Royal Police? What sort of security have u guys provided the citizens of Malaysia? Do we even get any sense of security having just bloody police stations built in a radius of perhaps 5-8km in every neighbourhood? Despite having the electronic siren installed on all patrol cars and bikes they were unable to respond to a SOS call within 10minutes? On her incident, the police took 45mins to reach, at 3am do u need 45minutes to reach despite emergency? I can frigging drive down to kl and back home in 45minutes if i were to drive at 3am in the morning and not taking into account the fact that they have sirens! Utter bullshit.

Further up, sometimes the police are not to be blamed entirely, most of them having a mere Rm1500 a month would not be sufficient to even feed their family which result in corruption. Im sure corruption or rather they would see it as "bonus" can sometimes equal their pay or even more a month. Corruption obviously due to the low,shit pay the government allocate to one of the most important public services to its citizen besides health services etc. Paying the police force such an amount, do u honestly its worth risking your life to save some unknown person when u are only paid rm1500 a month? I would even think twice, however due to recent cases like the Altantuya's case of police bombing up a person with c4 has already wiped off most peoples confidence with the police forces. The government, the ministers despite elected by the public are not taking extra steps to keep the citizens safe. Some ministers have like a small police hut outside their houses, police escorting them whereever they go, what makes u that powerful if it wasnt for the public, why do u feel so insecure to the extent u need so many police staff patroling your house when the public live in fear most of the time? Whats the point of us taxpayers when we dont even get the security we deserve?

Malaysia, Memories and some Moaning

I Love my country in fact, I love so much of the weather sometimes, the food especially and obviously the people and my family back there. Not gonna make this post some sorta missing home thing but its the plain fact that Malaysia is such a good place to live in except for shit issues with the government. So far being in the UK has been great, everything seems surreal till this point, being here for almost one and a half months. I was washing the dishes while Jenny, my flat mate was helping to do the wiping. At that point, I keep wondered whether this sorta situation is true, and its pretty hard to believe I'm almost 19.

Viewing back in the past, I remember when my mum picked me up from tuition I guess, I was just around the age of 10. I still remember it vividly somehow, mum was driving the mercedes E 230 while it was still pretty new. I was in the car with her and she was saying like: Johnson, do study hard and then she began calculating how many years till I enter university. After a long pause, she went lik, AH, 10 more years then you'll be in University. Being just only 10 years old , I dont even know the difference between a degree and a diploma, I didnt quite know what/how college and university life is all about but I sure know one thing that growing up to university was fun as what everyone had told me. Here I am being in university and I can pretty much say hell yeah it is fun, way better than any other form of education. =) Mum persuaded me to study medicine and I did agree when she suggested that; its really different now id say, every primary school kid often come across this question, or rather an essay which they have to write about. Somehow every kid back then wanted to be either a doctor, a police, a teacher, builder whatever and it was so common and I dont think most of them would even live up to what they said 10 years ago. heh, including me.

Back to the lovely Malaysia, well it is lovely but I have to admit, the government is shit, the politicians are shit, the stupid laws they implement and benefits given to some race is even worse. 21st century we're in and somehow the government is not willing to let it's people be more independant. I'm sure its not even the peoples' idea sometimes but just merely the rich powerful group of people as well as the politicians want to hold on to that law to make themselves even richer. In fact for what I think, politics is a place for the rich/successful people to get involved in; not to make themselves even richer but to contribute back to the society. Whats happening in Malaysia politics is that shit loads of unknown, uneducated people trying to get into policitics, some at the age of 30 without much accomplishment, without any financial backings join the politics just for a small pinch of the big cake.

I came across this article by Colin Nathan in which I read just had somehow I got even more disappointed. Trust me, if u have time, do read and Im sure u wont regret.

As below:

I was completely disillusioned Monday night watching PM Badawi’s threats to Datuk Seri Lim Keng Yaik not to “kacau” or face the “consequences” is serious.
Keng Yaik questioned why after 36 years, Bumi equity ownership was still 18.9%. (It was 20% in 1990) Clearly stating that he accepted the figure, he merely wanted to know the methodology used to arrive at the figure.


Badawi’s reaction is blatantly dishonest. In 2004, Morgan Stanley issued a report that estimated that over 100Billion US Dollars (360 Billion Ringgit) had been lost to Malay patronage in the 20 years preceding 2003. (1984 to 2003)
One economist estimates that in the 36 years of it’s existence, the NEP has been used to channel over ONE TRILLION RINGGIT to the Malay community through ASN, ASB and all related Govt policies.

Since 1970, the Govt has used the NEP to covet education, employment and every other conceivable benefit to the Malays. These measures have largely been successful with all the top posts in GLCs, Government, Universities, Public listed companies and practically every single area that the Govt has any control over being reserved for one race. No company may be listed with a lower than 30% Bumi equity but there is absolutely no problem if it is otherwise. Some industries have a mandatory 51% Bumi ownership and some industries are reserved exclusively for them. Petronas for example only employs and awards contracts to Malays.
ALL Govt and Municipal contracts are reserved to class “F” Bumi contractors. All the proposed projects under the 9th Malaysia Plan thus far are reserved for 100% Bumi owned companies. Even open tender projects are awarded to Malays even if their prices are higher with inferior materials. Micro business loans, business licenses, discounts on property purchases, new Govt employment, EVEN LICENSES FOR HAWKER STALLS are reserved for one race. The list goes on and on but the summary is that the Malay now believes undoubtedly that he is racially privileged.

ASLI’s figures of 45% are opposed to the Govt’s 18.9% because, firstly, equity value is calculated at par value. For example, if you held 1,000 Maxis shares RM 5/- each, the Govt says that it is only worth RM 250.00 as these shares are at a par value of 25cents each. If you owned a company with a paid up value of RM 2/- but conducted millions of Ringgit worth of transactions, the Govt values that company at RM 2/-.
The chief setbacks of the abuses of NEP are rampant corruption and cronyism, worsening racial polarization, unrelenting brain drains, warped educational system, thwarted economic competitiveness, ineffectual bureaucracy, retarded economic growth and perverted social values. Such anachronistic and regressive policy has no place in the present globalizing world, and for that matter, in any civilized society.
PM Badawi recently intensified the imprint of the perverted NEP philosophy by prohibiting inter-religious and inter-racial discourse which would otherwise have contributed to greater understanding and harmony among the races.
Consider the hegemony this has created……..

The Jasin MP’s saga of cheating millions from Customs over timber imports went unpunished. APs are reserved for Bumis only and despite the millions that each of them make year after year, a senator’s son has the audacity to clone the APs several times and the whole thing gets swept under the carpet. A Port Klang councilor buys a 43,000 sq ft plot of land set aside for low cost housing valued at 1.8 million Ringgit 180k and builds a palace without any approval. He gets fined RM 5,000 and still has 30days from today to submit his building plans. Yesterday, despite all the bad press this issue got, the Selangor state Govt confirms his position and that of his son and daughter in law as councilors. The message is clear. Power has shifted from the people to the executive.

The whole issue of Bumi chauvinism started at last year’s UMNO assembly when the very very vocal UMNO Youth leaders stated in short that “It’s our turn to be rich.” This greed is not going to end. We as a nation of loyal citizens have to put a dent into this rubbish for the sake of our children. We need a stronger opposition. By sending a threat to Datuk Seri Lim Keng Yaik, Badawi has betrayed us all. Remember this at the next general election.
We don’t need a change in Govt. We need a stronger opposition. We need to send a message to the powers that be that we will not accept second class status for our children.


Colin Nathan

Honestly without offense to any race/party, is this what we want? Do you want the world to know that we Malaysians have double standards on certain stuff and wont you even feel ashamed not being able to stand up for yourself?

Is this what we want?

Pool of Foam, FOAM PARTY!

Here we go, a party having like lotsa foam, swimming in foam, dancing in foam, doing whatever in foam, nobody cares! Hectic it was, of course with tonnes of fun. I'd regret not going, not gonna say much; picturess!


Basically the all of us while some got missed out.

I look pissed! ahhahaha

Jun being Japanese, well he is



Shoe posing i call this

A great dancer from HK, If not wrong i think hes called Paul

Jun and Max Salas

Sarah and Gwin while Jun and I walking down



Sarah, Annie and Jun

Sarah and Gwin!

blehhhh, weird lookin me



On the sad side, my uncle's father, my cousins' grandfather (Su-Anne and Hann) had just passed away. This is just a sad year but at least Im sure they have gone somewhere better rather than suffering the sicknesses u get when ure old. My condolences to all.

Finallly =) I feel good!

Firstly, I'd wish to thank Terri for sending pictures of dear Buddy, Im missing him so terribly


:( But im pretty satisfied just having his pictures and I was updated by my parents he is doing really well now. BAH! =D





He just look so adorable







I feel good about this UK life, although my job application got rejected. They replied this :





"I regret to inform you that due to the enormous amount of response we can no longer accept your application. This is not however a reflection of our opinion on your suitability for this position and would very much like to keep your details if we are looking to increase our Student Marketer team at your university for future campaigns."



However so, perhaps the higher authority above thinks I'm not suitable or not ready for the job yet. BMW JOB I hope. heheheh.





Had dinner with Jun, he brought his instant japanese curry from Germany when he went back this recent weekend. According to him, its spicy, wow yeah, hahahahahah, it has spice which probably makes it spicy. I dont quite make any sense but its not like chilli spicy but just mere spices ; it tasted pretty good tho, thick and nice. I did my 2nd recipe this time, i sorta seasoned chicken with salt and pepper in between the cuts I made on the fillet and marinated it in lemon juice and bit of soy sauce overnight. It tasted good but just a lil too sour - perhaps due to the over-marination. Ive been making really sour chicken dishes lately due to the oversupply of lemons, bought too many of them =/ ahhaha, so basically what i cook revolves chicken and lemon or rather improvising on what I have. Even Jun said it was pretty good. mhmmm :D



I've just applied for few more jobs just for kicks, some flier-giver being paid like £10/hr but normally its just for 2-3 hours each time so yeah. Im gonna ring up another guy to enquire regarding some job called the "Courtesy Call Operators" , pretty good pay as well £8/hr, just gotta call people up and ask them regarding the service which the company provides. I'm making myself sound so desperate for a job and yes, I'm bloody poor.



Besides, I had a pretty good day, had only 2 hours of lessons today, Building Design and Construction lectures have been cancelled for 2 weeks just to give us more time to finish up our assignment. My group : Joel, Jason and Johnson(me) have to give some exact measurements of a room in which they chose my room. Measuring the Internal Gross Area, External Gross Area, Wall thickness etc looked really easy but it wasnt when we started working on it.



A rough sketch done by Jason while Joel and I were busy measuring it with tape, Jason has more experience in stuff like these since he did a foundation on built construction.



I need to be more productive! I know a blog post like this is really boring but Im gonna post something more interesting soon, need my camera to be with me even more often. Just some random pictures.



Click on it to view it really closely.

My way.

Stupid Sze Keat, See Zee Kee or now Mr. Ryan Ong's favourite quote of the week : Cheers mate or just Cheers or Cheers off or just make up any word which contains cheers. Thanks Ryan now its running in my head all the time whenever anyone says cheers or rather whenever i hear that word.



Made a weekend trip to London, wasnt really an organised one but I decided to pay Uncle Tahir and family a visit. Took the bus down around 12pm, reached London roughly an hour and a half later, travelled down with Joel, really nice dude whom I met in class and since he goes back to London every week. Found out later on that he left his cell on the bus which was pretty shitty. Upon arrival, called Brandon but he was having classes, called Yvonne Tee a.k.a. Miss Malaysia 2007 and I met up with her at Trafalgar Square.



Did some snapshots while waiting for the Miss Malaysia.









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Walked back to Yvonne's place, she had a sharing room, seems really decent but just the fact of sharing a room with another person AND a toilet. I wouldnt want that. heh. Yvonne was like busy filling up her job application and DANG, shes paid like £9.60/hr. Hope u get the job Yvonne den u can buy all of us a meal :D






Had late lunch at this place called Zizzi, they have Zizzi in Oxford too and apparently the food was pretty good.









And yes Yvonne my camera likes u alot. hahahaha.


Had duck at Bayswater Four Season Restaurant, I was expecting it to be like a really big restaurant, and we waited for 1 hour to just get a place. Ding Nen came earlier than Dian and I around 7:15 and we got our places at 8-ish. Bloody crowded, thanks to the long wait, we had 2 ducks instead of one. The long queue got us really hungry. Heres the breakdown of what we had, 6 of us, Joshua, Brandon, James, Ryan, Kokshen and I we ordered egg fried rice for 6, which came up to be REALLY BIG, 2 whole ducks de-boned, Black Bean/Peppered Beef, and Kai-Lans. The meal was so so good! Had like 3 rounds of rice together with duck etc, bahhhhh. :D I'll definately go back when Im missing chinese food. AWESOME. Their service sucks tho, went on dutch and paid around 13 Pounds each which wasnt too bad for the amount of food I ate. I need to gain weight, ngeheh or probably Im pretty gifted in a way being able to enjoy food.

Just doing a short post before going for my Law seminar. Laws pretty boring since I've did most of it in A-Levels. Take care peeps, see u soon, especially my brothers.

Its all about me

I've bought a bike just recently and it costed me a bloody bomb £242.98 inclusive of all the stuff, I know its really expensive but it was like the 2nd cheapest bike around. I feel its really worth it though however, being able to move around with ease and fast.


Bike posing when Jun hung my bike up high on the fence



Applied for a job yesterday, or rather 2- ones being a student marketer being paid £8/hour with maximum hours a week of 12. Works out to roughly £100 a week which is not bad. Applied for another one being a quality inspector on mini coopers soft tops sounds awesome and the pay is even better at £9.5/hour. I think i can even work 20 hours a week for that. hmmmm :D I really hope i get the quality inspector job and that would be awesome AWESOME!


Been really cold today, dont know why - was really foggy as well but its getting better with the sun up now. take care guys :)

Satisfaction

Sometimes trying is sufficient to just make u feel satisfied, you dont necessarily need to succeed to achieve satisfaction.








Im satisfied of myself, Uni lifes good, lectures were great today, its like after each lecture, you'd learn and use it in the future. This is life.







Good mood = Good cook = Good food. ngeh :D





Chicken curry with vegetables







Upclose




Not forgetting fruits of course!





mmmm =)


However it looks better than it taste but im satisfied. hahahah

Perhaps...

Perhaps how we think are different now

Perhaps how we react towards stuff are different now

Perhaps we do lie alot

Perhaps we dont appreciate what others do for us

What are we really seeking in life, just think and answer,


Perhaps...

love is what u want? friendship is something u seek? sincerity and honesty u endeavor for, are u loving and living the life u have/want? I hate to say this but, we can't always make things we want to really happen most of the time ; they just do.


Perhaps..

you can think I'm cruel, you can think im like some fucking bastard, you can think im a hypocrite but back in all, are you really living the promises? or maybe you dont consider them as promises but just mere words to make me feel better. I dare friggin bet you're wondering right now what have u promised or what have u said. We're not perfect, sometimes we make mistakes accidentally, sometimes we dont even bother to change cause someone else do not deserve that we put away and change our bad habit or attitude ; you just feel its not even worth it to make a change.


Dont even say that u dont know what went wrong, seriously dont. I'd think that you are making matters worse to not even take the fucking effort to observe and think what has went wrong. At the end of most screwed up days in my life, I took the effort to find out what went wrong. This time it is definately not me, play the blame game but if you think you're right this time, I'll let u think its that way and just give up, I dont see a point or sense in it anymore.

Perhaps sometimes sorry isnt enough, you dont go making mistakes and just say a mere or probably a thousand times sorry and think it will all be good, it doesnt work that way. Just imagine, Im not gonna mention names but the guy whom u were afraid of for years came up to you and said sorry, would u think its fine? Somebody who did like terrible stuff to you several times and just end up saying a sorry would cure? IT DOESNT, SORRY SORRY, its so easy to even say Im sorry this im sorry for that. In fact its so often heard I dont really take it like it meant something cause I hear it just too often. I dont want anybody to be sorry over stuff, just dont do it and Im fine.

Having to mention always to love you as a friend, if you think it isnt true so be it, if you know what Im thinking in which i presume u dont cause u dont even understand or see the problem how on earth would u know it isnt true? IF it isnt true.

Good friends dont suddenly act close and not keep in contact after a while, close friends enjoy the accompany of the other, close friends would make more effort just to see the other party happy, close friends would try to contact each other, fuck it if it is expensive or not, just a hello, how are you would make a person feel much better. I make the effort to call back to Malaysia just to keep in contact.

IF you think friends being close is not through communicating or even trying to communicate and connect to them, please define friends. IF i dont communicate with close friends often, most of the time i consider them as just friends or even acquaintances where most of the time u just say hi and bye and probably meet up after a while. If you dont show it, when do u think would be the right time? just WHEN?

You ignored what I said to you, ever since that day, I viewed you pretty differently, I pretty much predicted this to happen, nothing can stop you really.

Perhaps I'm the one wrong, just perhaps.

Perhaps you're right, perhaps.

At the end of the day, you know what u lost, I've lost some and perhaps our paths are different.

Dont answer or dont try to think what I think cause you're not me.

In Conjunction

In Conjunction to the previous post, I just got this email from a friend, Jee Wei - somehow I just happen to get it at almost the right time, decided to share with you guys.

Heres how it goes :

F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by, "Oh excuse me please" was my reply.


He said, "Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you."


We were very polite, this stranger and I. We went on our way and we said goodbye.


But at home a different story is told, How we treat our loved ones, young and old.


Later that day, cooking the evening meal, My son stood beside me very still.


When I turned, I nearly knocked him down. "Move out of the way," I said with a frown.


He walked away, his little heart broken. I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.


While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said, "While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, but the family you love, you seem to abuse.


Go and look on the kitchen floor, You'll find some flowers there by the door.


Those are the flowers he brought for you. He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.


He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise, you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."


By this time, I felt very small, And now my tears began to fall.


I quietly went and knelt by his bed; "Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.


"Are these the flowers you picked for me?" He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.


I picked 'em because they're pretty like you. I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."


I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way." He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."


I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."


FAMILY Are you aware that if we died tomorrow,
the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?
So what is behind the story?




I guess this sends like really good message across, this sounds bit emotional but Im really alright, thank you to all the friends who showed concern and stuff, I really do appreciate and I love love love you guys.

I've lost enough since I left

Its really ironic to my blog title.
Everyone hates losing their loved ones; my grandmother was admitted to the hospital, my family and I paid respect by visiting her before I had to leave for the UK to further my education. I had positive thoughts that Im sure this wont be my last time getting to see her, I mean she passed even worse situations than this last year. I departed for the UK on the 12th of September with my best friends being there to send me off, I was indeed really really happy, so happy I didnt know how to express myself. Im really gladful having you guys to send me off and thank you so much.




Just to tell you guys how much I appreciate it.



I reached Heathrow airport on the 13th of September, excited, filled with good hopes and thoughts. We stayed over at dearest uncle Tahir's house with his family who are always really warm and welcoming, and I would say I feel the most comfortable being due to them being so so hospitable. Uncle Tahir is actually my dad's classmate back then when my dad came to the UK to do his Real Estate degree in I'd say now one of the shittiest university available in the UK - University of East London and Im not joking, go check it out and you'll know its one of the lowest 10 uni. Just look at my dad today, I seriously admire him so much, people often say go to the best university, get your degree and you'd be set for life, sometimes I think its not so important really, having my dad coming from one of the shittiest uni, he achieved well in his life, uncle Tahir is really successful on his side as well. The friends you make are the most important I think, friends will make an influence and also shape your overall personality.





On the 14th of September, I was so so shocked to have heard Uncle Tahir's mum have just passed away. This happened in the morning and felt really sad for their loss, later in the evening roughly at 9, my father got a call from Malaysia and they said my grandmum have passed away. I mean what the f*ck is happening, my dad and his best friend lost their mums on the same day, Uncle Tahir's sons, Omar, Osman and Zeeshan lost their grandmother on the same day as I lost mine. I didnt know what to do when I heard that news, it was so surreal and I couldnt believe that it happened. However, Uncle Tahir and family had really positive thoughts as they were muslims and their grandmum died on the first day of Ramadan and it was a Friday which would you cant really ask for any better date. My parents decided to fly back earlier than the planned schedule after they checked me in at my accommodation at Brookes.





Now at this very moment, I dont know how important or how serious my favourite dog Buddy's situation is now. I just hope he will be alright, mum told me that hes ill, couldnt walk and had no appetite. Although he is pretty old but Im sure he shouldnt be that bad. I miss you Ah-Ma and I'm missing Buddy so much now, the times where I'd always feed him more bread than any other dogs in which would be his favorite food, lie on the car porch with him, wrestle with him on the floor. It may sound childish but I dont really care how you see it, Buddy can sense when you're feeling down and would always just come to you and lick your ear which mysteriously makes u feel better. I dont wanna lose you that soon, I've already lost Ah-Ma without being there for her; I cant afford to lose you when Im so far away. Please do appreciate your loved ones and show them you care while they're still around.



I tear. I wish. I pray.





tTt



First Post

For the bloody first time I've decided to sorta make full use, optimize my university life whenever I'm free or to rather keep people updated of what have been happening. You know, now, everything has to be like well managed, especially time when theres so much of fun being in uni, going out so often because of the sudden gain of freedom after so long.









Im sorry for this disturbing picture of Jun and I



But im loving it :D



















Jenny and Jun seems tipsy as well after a few drinks at the Bridge.


















Just to update or whatsoever, I'm now doing Real Estate Management at Oxford Brookes University, had to honestly say that I was very skeptical about the university at first, I had always wanted to go to Reading but I dare dare say that Im not even regretting a single bit of it cause of the people i meet here and seriously the uk education system is r0x0r, like seriously.





To sorta keep things in short, its good in the sense that theres so much space for students to participate in class, the lecturers will not really say no to your answer but perhaps try to view it as you might think. In comparison to the system we get in Malaysia, its all bout stuffing u with bloody answers and expect u to know it at the end of the day and vomit everything from A-Z on judgementday. LECTURES HERE ARE JUST AWESOME; they are so good that I wouldnt even want to skip lectures despite having close to 4-5hrs of sleep and im serious!

This looks like a pretty long post for my first time but heck I care, Im having only 2-3 hours a day on average in University, spend most time either in the Climbing Gym or the gym as well as taking, practising breakdancing back again. I'll just post up some pictures and since u know the so frequent heard phrase, a picture is worth a thousand words ; let some of my pictures say some thousand words. Not realising I've already been in University for almost 3 weeks, Im honestly loving every single little bit of it; the people are really friendly, i'd say most of them. I've not seen any Malaysian people yet but yeah I dont really mind. Have a bunch of really funny cool friends in where we hang out really often.






(my bed ; my wardrobe)





(the workplace ; the toilet ; the overall)



Lastly, my favourite jacket, knitted sleeve, so friggin comfortable and nice




Thats all for now, I'll add more stuff, didnt know blogging is this time consuming, I'd better study. lol.


To those in Malaysia or wherever, whenever u might think of dropping by Oxford give me a call.


Missing and Loving you fellas.


....JtTt